Something Dr. Mashburn said in class Tuesday really pricked my ears: "God never says why they should be circumcised, He just said do it." And they did. My question is: why can't we be that simple? Then again, maybe it's just me; so, why can't I be that simple? When He calls me to something, I sit around and debate with myself to the point that eventually I ask Him, "Really? Are You sure?" Yes, He is sure.
Christ sent Paul, and Paul went without question. He never asked, "Are you sure, Lord? I persecuted Your people, are You sure I am the one you should be sending to the Gentiles, their kings, and the people of Israel?" However, Christ sent Ananias to Paul, and he questioned slightly--I suppose I am a lot like Ananias. I want to be simpler, but I suppose it doesn't boil down to being simple, it's about how much I trust Him. I talk about trusting Him, relying on Him, resting in Him, but there is always some question in my mind; I fight for control and question His.
We discussed sacrifice and Romans 12:1; if I am to give myself as I sacrifice, then I, in turn, give up my would-be control. I have given my life over to Him, yet I at times try to maintain my false control. The image reminds me of some of the kids I coach in gymnastics. They attempt some movement I just taught them, fully believing they possess the capability of doing it by themselves: "I don't need your help, Miss Sam. I can do it." They can only go so far until I reach in to help them complete it. Earlier, I watched child after child try to flip themselves over a bar, flailing their legs all over the place in an effort to succeed. They can only do it when I steady their legs and support their back. Each day is something new and unknown in my walk with the Lord, so I could never do it alone; He delivers me for His glory.
Now I ask myself in retrospect, "Does you think an object of sacrifice has control? How far do you really think you can go? How much control do you truly think you have, Samantha? Glorify Him, stop fighting Him."
(Commented Ben's)
I sometimes have the same problem. I find that I question God's motives instead of just accepting them. It's really hard to not question them because I over think things waaaay too much. So I must learn to just go with it and not ask any questions. I mean, God is always right and He knows what is best for us, so we should all stop wondering and just do whatever he's telling us to do.
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